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Chapter 11 is at Joe Sullivan. Chapter 13 is at Matt Briggs.
12
Asseem didn’t change young Zara’s direction so much
as quicken her pace. It was clear to
anyone watching that she’d been looking for a way out, that she was bored. She was bored of her parents, their obsessive
and vicarious focus on her own transgressive acts, bored of her absurd teacher
and his split personality, and bored of her peers. But it was a lazy boredom, comfortable, and
lead to behavior which, unlike that of Asseem, broke boundaries in a kind of
off-hand, easy-going manner, upsetting and in the same movement reestablishing
balance, a cat burglar in the house of social norms. It amounted, in her mind, to little more than
ultimate compliance. For all the
ferocity, the reputation for a quick-lipped licentiousness that inspired
anxiety in those around her, her attitude was not born of a desire to threaten,
intimidate, or harass. It came
naturally, unforced. It moved through
her body like blood. It radiated from her
like the soft exhalations of a sleeping child: effortless.
Even her frustration at this disposition gushed from
her in attitudinally appropriate amounts, and her emotional spasms were a clock
by which the adolescent development in others could be gauged for some sign of
aberrance. The Doc called her flawless. I’ve always used slightly different criteria
for my assessment, but I’d been inclined to agree.
So it was not difficult to see why she felt drawn to
Asseem. He shared her fire and
determination, walked down the halls of their school without a glance to either
direction, but did so without the grace that, paradoxically, seemed to cause
Zara the most grief. She was like a
ballerina jealous of a break-dancer’s slouch.
Not that anyone but the most careful observer could
see the ballerina. This is in her head,
I'm talking. The ballerina was hidden
behind Zara's brusque manner, or rather, was
this very manner, so in tune with her environment, a symbiosis of complementary
forms. This fact, however, only made the
idea easier for people to accept.
"Two rugged outsiders drawn together by the world that wouldn’t let
them in," etc. It was the tag line
from a movie she'd hate. It wasn’t quite
as easy as that. Though Zara confessed
her interest rather quickly, both to Asseem and herself, the boy openly fought
it for a while, and even after public capitulation arguably never truly faced
the extent of his feelings until the day she left him. Not that Zara minded. It was part of what she loved him for.
It belonged to his sense of intense entitlement,
which she found equally provocative.
Asseem’s deep brown eyes smiled at her as he chewed
the apple. Her savior, the fool. Juice dripped down the canals formed by his
full cheeks as she studied his expression.
She steadied her nerves, glanced at the de-dogged doorway, and punched
him moderately hard in the gut, taking the apple back. She loved his sense of entitlement, but she
wasn’t going to stand for it.
He wheezed, doubling over.
“Thanks for saving my ass, but the apple’s not for
you,” she said, and bit into it herself.
She’d swallowed the first bite and taken another by
the time Asseem had recovered. “Damn,
girl, that shit ain’t right,” he managed.
“It isn’t right to take what doesn’t belong to you,”
she returned, smiling to herself.
“Yeah well I shoulda juss waited to grab it rollin
down tha street once ‘at dog’d took yo’ ass down.”
Zara considered.
“Okay," she said, handing him the apple, “but spare me the ebonics,
fresh, I heard you in class today.
You’re not fooling anyone.”
This pissed him off.
He stood back, looked her up and down, and made the "tse" sound
she'd soon learn to love. "Shit,
girl," he said with a lip-curling disdain, "I ain't even tryin' ta hear dat." And with that he pushed past her and headed
out, slamming into the blinding lights of 5th Avenue like a slap in
the face. Zara watched him go, slightly
amused, and took another bite of her apple before following him out of the
building. Back under the heat
lamps. She broke through a crowd of
people gathered just outside the door, thought for a moment that they'd come to
witness the commotion she'd caused, and turned to see she'd just exited a movie
theatre. Hmm. Still scanning to find
her target, she experienced a small let down at the idea that Asseem, this
beautifully stormy brown boy, would be spending his time watching inane,
uplifting feature films. A voice inside
her tried to excuse him, reasoned he could have been getting a hand-job,
something redeemable, but Zara rooted the voice out as her mother's, and
pressed the issue out of her head. She
just needed to find him. She'd talk to
him. She'd see for herself. She listened to her mother's fading cry,
cliff-fall-crashing against the craggy shore of her daughter's subconscious.
Temporarily free.
Asseem was just turning the corner when Zara caught
sight of him, mercifully moving away from the unpleasant street. He was heading back east, she saw - possibly
home. She crunched another bite of her
diminishing meal and took off after him.
Happy, film-bound faces swirled around her, heading in for their dose,
ready to be blasted into unbecoming, and she frowned at them as she passed,
trying for at least an unemotional middle-ground of basic comprehension. Something pre-judgement. Something true. Something.
Asseem was partway down the block when she turned
the corner, and Zara quickened her pace.
She called out to him but he didn’t stop. Bastard,
she smiled. They moved through the
relative dim, shadows stretching before them from the blast of light behind,
and Zara watched as her head began to lick his heels. It moved up the clopping calves as she
pressed forward, over his ass, and when her outline was etched across his back
she asked again: Asseem?
The boy stopped.
"Asseem look I'm sorry if-"
"Ain't no if,"
he interrupted. He was still facing
away. Zara stood in place, wondering how
angry he really was. She wasn't used to
facing such hostility. She caused it, of
course, but people didn't normally confront her with it. It was held in, tied up, released when she
was gone. Maybe, she thought, he was
being intentionally melodramatic. She
was quick. Of course, people had
different feelings about this, over time.
Some of my colleagues thought his behavior was largely affected. Some thought it was exaggerated, but
unintentionally, a prop thrown up automatically by a genuinely diminutive
self-image. Though I never liked the
guy, I gave him the benefit of the doubt with this. He was just another confused kid trying to
make his way in the world.
"Well, okay," Zara began. She was surprised to find herself actually
using a tender voice. She wondered
vaguely where she'd gotten it, but was almost entirely wrapped up in the telling. "I'm sorry that I offended you."
She paused. "It wasn't my
intention."
People pushed by them, mongers making their way to
and from 5th Avenue, carrying their wares or carrying cash. The street crowded in around them, but not,
Zara felt, threateningly. The grime and
gush of ill-maintained urban landscape was a comfort. The creatures trudging through, its
keepers. She waited.
"Handpepper is a fool," he finally said.
Now they were getting somewhere. Zara fought the urge to express her full
excitement about this statement, not only the sentiment, but the plain way he
pronounced the word "fool". He
was reaching out.
"I think you might be on to something,"
she said.
He turned around.
His eyes seemed to struggle past their sockets, staring from somewhere
deep inside his head. His face was round
but not soft, and the early whispering of whiskers broke through the skin of
his cheeks and chin. “You’re a fool too.”
Okay, she thought.
I’ll give it to him. Zara just
smiled. Only fools don’t admit their own
foolishness. She hadn’t dismissed
everything her father had said, after all.
“You think you only get one tongue?”
Whoa. Here it
comes. She was captive at Go. Tongues?
Tongues were good.
“You think just because I can speak your language,
everything else I say is somehow inauthentic?”
Inauthentic. This was too good to be true. She silently chastised herself for paying
more attention to his form than his content.
“I…” she began.
“You don’t know shit.”
They stood looking at one another for a while in
silence. He’d challenged her, of
course. It was Zara’s turn to prove him
wrong. But she knew this could only be
achieved over time. She chose instead to
redirect.
“Did you know that Handpepper is the bottom in a
master/slave relationship he has with his wife?”
Asseem scowled.
“As in she ties him up and makes him eat off the
floor and stuff.”
He made the “Tse” sound again and turned back
around, began walking. Zara hopped up
beside him, which he didn’t seem to mind, and walked with him. They walked through the busy corridors of
commerce she’d passed through on the way down, but instead of heading up the
main artery connecting her neighborhood to downtown, Asseem kept to side
streets. They walked.
They walked.
They passed a fallen poster advertising an older 5th
Avenue film, and Zara was reminded of the theatre he’d dragged her into. She was fairly certain by now that he’d have
a good explanation for it, but the idea wouldn’t leave her alone and eventually
leapt from her mouth after a sharp inhale.
She wasn’t quite ready for it herself, and hoped it wouldn’t upset
things further.
To her surprise, Asseem didn’t seem to notice the
judgmental undertones of her question, and gave her a near-animated
response. “It’s my job,” he said, “I
work those theatres. All of them.”
“You work, what, at the ticket booth?” Zara wasn’t sure how much better this was,
but she was relieved that he wasn’t in there for the spectacle.
“Hardly. I’m
a translator.”
She considered.
“A translator for what?”
“For the people who watch the movies.”
Zara wondered if he was being intentionally
vague. “Okay, so but what exactly do you
translate?”
“You mean what language?”
“Sure.”
“Well, Zara, I happen to translate the fake language you take for some kind of
lie I’m apparently telling the world,” he paused, “if not myself.”
Aha. “You
translate…”
“Ebonics,
as you call it. Though my people never
use that word. Black english. Jive.”
He trailed off. They stood a
street corner, and Asseem looked at her, then took a deliberate turn.
Zara had only seen a few segments of these films,
in-class screenings, and was trying to picture how the whole thing might
work. She saw an auditorium, many
tiered, but couldn’t stop seeing them all sitting at desks. She saw Asseem sitting beside some old, rich
movie-goer, watched him passing notes to the man, crinkled up paper scrawled
with whatever the black character on screen was saying, rapping away in barely
understandable babble.
“Basically I sit next to old rich white folk and
whisper in their ear when anyone speaks something even remotely unfamiliar.” He
smiled. A first. “It doesn’t really matter what they’re
saying. I make it something I think the
bastards want to hear, and the tips are healthy.”
This, thought Zara, was a great idea. “What a great scam!” she exclaimed, excited
by Asseem’s candor. But when she looked
over at him she saw a worried look. His
eyes scanned the street before them, and he craned his neck to look
behind. They were alone on this
particular stretch, in between busier streets.
He came to a stop then, and she knew she’d crossed another line.
“Look,” he began, “first of all, can you try to
contain yourself? This doesn’t have to
be a public discussion.” He was
annoyed. “Maybe you’re used to just
telling your secrets to anyone who’ll listen, and that’s fine. You do that.
But do it somewhere else. I
obviously made a mistake telling you about my job, and I’m willing to accept
those consequences, but-”
“Wait a minute,” Zara interjected, “never mind that
no one’s around to hear what we’re talking about, but I, I…” She trailed off. His response seemed so out of line that she
didn’t even know where to begin. How
could she communicate anything reasonable at this point? They’d been together fifteen minutes and she
already felt like an oaf. The inner
ballerina was all clumsy missteps. She
halted production, regained her balance, continued. “Please, Asseem, just bear with me. Obviously I’m a babe in the woods here.”
The boy kicked at the street, hands in his
pockets. He liked her. He liked this crazy girl who punched him in
the gut. The Zarabarbarian. His father would kill him if he knew he’d
been with her. He smiled. He frowned.
“Well, it’s not a scam,” he said, low volume.
Oh. Insulted
pride? Partially, but there was
something else in it. Zara tried to
piece it together. This tough and
delicate diamond, speaking from under an emotional shadow, source unknown. She was falling hard. The wind picked up and she watched Asseem’s
top-mop curl into the air. Cans blew
across the street, scraping metal echoes into the awkward silence.
“The weather’s been going crazy,” she said. A peace offering. Asseem looked around, nodded. He started walking, slowly, then turned back
toward Zara. He shrugged.
“You coming?”
Zara let a barely noticeable smile murmur across her
mouth. She shrugged back, and caught up
with him. The wind pushed them down the
block, and although it was warm, Zara wrapped her arms around her waist. Asseem kept looking around, always vigilant. They walked in silence for a while, watching
the wane of activity around them, the darkened streets interrupted by city-lit
burning drums, and Zara wondered if she’d made the cut.
“I didn’t mean it wasn’t important work,” she
finally said.
“Yeah, well, I have plans.”
“I believe it.”
Zara realized that she was still holding her mostly
eaten apple, and after seeing that it was all browned and dry from the
windswept dust, she tossed it into the overgrown lot of an old Safeway. A pang of hunger pulsed in her stomach, and
she thought about home, then glanced at a street sign, trying to place
herself. She wasn’t more than a few
blocks away from her house, but they were going in the wrong direction.
“Are you coming back to class?” she asked, trying to
hide her hopefulness.
He looked at her, quizzically. “Of course I’m coming back to class,” he
said. “What made you think I wouldn’t?”
“I was just, you know… I mean you and Handpepper…”
“That’ll blow over.
He got what he wanted.” Asseem
said this was a convincing tone of certainty.
Zara thought about it, and realized it was
true. Handpepper had got what he wanted. She
pictured his smug mug as he’d stood in the doorway earlier. She smiled.
“I guess you’re right,” she said, and turned
abruptly to the left. “Well, I’ll see
you tomorrow then.”
Asseem stopped and watched her walk away. He shook his head, rubbed his stomach, and
continued on his pathway home. He had to
think of a good story to tell his father.
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